Seven years ago, September 6, I had to start my life over again. My "new normal" began that day, a normal of trying to live without my mom. For all of my life up to that point, my mom had been my confidant, my teacher, my biggest supporter. Then suddenly, without warning at all, she had a "sudden cardiac event." Because she was resituated on scene/at the hospital, we had to make the decision to let her go. She had expressed her wishes before, so we knew what she would want. It was still so hard. Sitting in the hospital, watching her slowly die. It broke me in a way I wasn't expecting. I never thought I would be strong enough to live through the passing of my mom.
At 30 years old, my mom left the earth and I had to begin the rest of my life without her. I can't even tell you how many times I picked up the phone to call her, only to remember, oh yeah... she's gone. Even seven years later, her number is still programmed into my phone. The last texts all saved. Though that number has long since been reassigned, to me it will always be mom. I still, to this day, comfort myself by keeping things that were hers in my home. By getting things with piggies on them to remind me of her.
I think I will forever be incomplete without her. All I can do to feel complete is to keep living in the way she would have liked and hope that somewhere, she is watching me, our girls, and smiling.
And a second one, because that was so deep... Tell us about your favorite TV show lineup as a teen.
I won't say that it was a favorite as a teen, but Blue's Clues was definitely one we watched a lot since we always had little kids around. When Steve left the show, it was sudden and just not the same with the new guy. This week, "Steve" posted a video about his abrupt departure from the show. It was moving in more ways then I even realized.
I just think it is something everyone should watch.
Might mean a bit more to those of us who watched him, but still meaningful either way.
