Five Minute Friday & 31 Days of Free Writes Part I

I thought this would be a good way to keep me going this month. So every Friday, you will get a week's worth of five minute free writes. This is inspired by the blog Heading Home. You can see more by clicking the link at the bottom of the post.

October 1 

I need to move more! I have been so inactive lately. What I miss most about running is the movement and the views of what is outside. Maybe I should start my walks again. Even the girls would probably appreciate an after dinner walk. Help us all get a little more active. Moving isn't just my physical activity though. I need to move my brain and work on using it more for different things like blogging about things I'm not familiar with and stepping out of my comfort zone. I get comfortable easily (especially at home!) and just sit and watch tv mindlessly, I need to stop that and make a change. Move more, be less stagnant. I might just have to make that one of my goals for this next year, since I haven't done so hot with my 2014 goals. But I am giving myself grace on that. I have had a lot of stuff happen to me in 2014 and I can always start again. What do you think of when you see the word move? Is it physical activity, changes in your home? I am starting to get bored with this topic. I hit my goal too soon and still have time to write. Move also makes me think of all the moves that our little family has made in the last few years we have been in Boise. I hate moving houses but we have every year since moving here. Lame! Hopefully we can stay where we are awhile. I worry we will outgrow it but McKayla is convinced that we can buy this house and stay here forever. I think she's done with moving too. Probably isn't too easy on the kids or myself. I have tried really hard to move only within their school zone though, so at least they don't have to deal with that.

October 2 

My view seems very limited right now. I am so focused on getting through each day without my mom. She always used this description of life, sometimes you are in this thick fog (happens a lot in the Willamette Valley) and you can't see anything in front of you. You are driving along with such a limited view. That is how we live our lives, but we have someone we can trust in. Someone who can see through the fog and tell us which way to go. It's hard being in the middle of tragedy. All you see is this tiny picture of what is right in front of you. What you can't see is the amazing painting that God is creating out of your life. I pray this will help make me a better, stronger person. Give me new insight to use in life. Change my view of the world a little bit. View isn't just about that to me though, it's about using your life to see the world through the eyes of another person. Your view is limited to what you have been through. You can have sympathy for someone going through something you haven't ever experienced, but you can't have empathy without having experienced it yourself. I'm not saying that one is better then the other, just saying that without having been through a situation, being in the "driver seat" view, you have no idea what someone is going through. Watch the words you say, the things you do. My view right now totally stinks, but I am praying that God will widen my horizon, show me something good will come of this and that I will grow as a person. My view may suck, but my God certainly doesn't!

October 3 - Five Minute Friday

See last week's Five Minute Friday here.

October 4

I never thought at 30 I would be struggling with my third grader's homework. Common core has completely ruined that. It actually prompted me to send an email to her teacher to ask for help. So frustrating. This isn't really something I wanted to learn at 30. Math isn't something I really enjoyed learning before and I certainly don't like explaining that I don't understand her third grader's homework. I need to learn before I can help her and it makes me really really frustrated. I understand that they are trying to standardize things, but this is getting silly. They are making it harder then it has to be and I hate that! I struggled with math as a child. I can't even imagine trying to do things now. They are learning in a way that makes zero sense to me. Right now learning is frustrating. I see the word and it makes me think of helping McKayla. The poor thing is trying to explain it to me and she is getting frustrated because mommy doesn't get it. This was NOT supposed to happen at age 8 (almost 9!). I thought I had years before I would have to start learning again, but alas, I am back to it. M's teacher is sending me some examples home so that I can learn how she is learning and we also plan to discuss it during her parent teacher conference. So annoying! I wish I could just teach her the way I learned, but this is going to be the way they test, so I can't.

October 5 

I love Natalie's expression in this picture. She is clearly not amused to be in this "swing" but not able to get herself off. It's like life sometimes. We are on this ride that was not what we signed up for and all we want is off. But we can't do it ourselves. No matter how hard we try, we aren't going to be able to handle this life on our own. We need help from the source. He is the only one who can help us get through the ride without harm. No matter how hard we try on our own, we just make it harder. I really like the story about the goat. He was stuck in a dry well. The farmer couldn't get him out (who knows why, doesn't seem that hard!) but he gave up on the goat and decided to put it to rest by burring it alive (my goodness this story is sounding a lot worse typed out!). So, shovel full by shovel full, he started to slowly fill the hole. But what the goat did is what we have to do, he would shake the dirt off, stomp around a bit and just keep doing that. The way he was doing that he was keeping the ground (and dirt) under his feet, no matter what the farmer flung in the hole. It's an amazing metaphor for our lives. We can be the farmer and just give up when it seems you are stuck in an impossible situation or we can be like the goat and brush it off and keep going. I am sure the goat wasn't happy about having that dirt dumped on him, and he probably wasn't quiet, but he kept at it, didn't give up. That is how we have to be. We can't just give up and figure we will be stuck until we die, we have to shake it off, ask for help and move on.

October 6 

I always like to say that there is some that I do know and a lot that I don't know. Or is that do? I don't know. lol But I have a lot of what my mom affectionately called "brain farts" that leave me wondering what the heck I was thinking about or what I was doing. It is expected at this stage in my grief, but I am more prone to these attacks. I know that it is something that will get better, but sometimes I wonder. It might just be something I have to live with more of. There are a few things I do know: I know that God loves and will never stop. I know that I have three amazing children who God will help me raise the way He wants me to. I know that I have a finance who loves me and would do almost anything for me. I know that I have an amazingly supportive group of coworkers. Not many people can say their coworkers paid for them to get home and in three short hours no less. I know that I have a job that isn't going anywhere. I am in an industry that isn't going away. Everyone needs a doctor and those doctors are always going to need staff to support them. I know many things. Many important things, some not so important but I do know things. I know that I am rocking my jamberry sales and am excited about it. I know that I am determined to meet my goals and do well at this job. I know that it's fun to promote a product that I love. I just wish I knew a bit more about the business side so I could do that more easily. But I have lots of family and friends who have been amazingly supportive so far with my business endeavor.

October 7

The first thing that comes in to my mind when I think of is driving. I go crazy when I am out and about driving. Especially when I have a specific place and time to be somewhere. The traffic and stupid things people do irritates me and more often then not I am yelling at them. "GO!" It was especially infuriating the other morning on my way to work, I went from cruising at 60ish mph (construction zone) to like 5 mph. All because they had changed the lanes a bit So annoyed when I realized why everyone was slowing. All I wanted to do was go. They were being more careful then I was, well more cautious at least. Not to say I am not a careful driver, I just don't think it is safe to go from regular speed to really, really slow in the span of a mile. The funny thing is that it's a chain reaction. The person who initially slowed caused everyone else to do so, that made it even a bigger mess. The people in the back (where I was!) had zero idea what was going on. All I knew is that I wasn't going anywhere. That could really symbolize life. There are many of us who are just going the path. Following the clump of cars around us, not sure really what is going on. We might have a plan but no real way to deal with problems when they come up. Sometimes they bring us from comfortably "going" along in life to being stopped. And it isn't something you can just pick up and resume your previous speed. You have to follow the direction of the rest of the traffic. I guess that part isn't really like life, you want to go at your own rate. Oh well. There goes that symbolism!

October 8

 When I think about the word say, immediately my mind wanders to how much words can hurt. What you say to someone else can really effect them. I have been told things (in my younger years) that have stayed with me. It's heartbreaking especially when it happens to your kids and you can't do anything about it. My girls are constantly coming in the house and saying that someone called them this name or that, or even that someone called them mean or rude. They are my girls, so of course this brings them to tears. They don't want to be that kid who is rude or mean. At this young an age (my oldest is just shy of nine) and they are already concerned about what other people say about them or to them. I am trying really hard to make them understand that they are only words, and that what matters is what is going on inside. If they know they aren't rude and they know they aren't mean, they need to figure out how to remind themselves of that. I don't want my children to be hard-hearted, but I don't want them crying every time someone says something mean to them. It's a really tough struggle. I want the words that come out of my mouth to be pleasing to the Lord. That means that I am going to do my best not to gossip or say mean things about people. It also means that I will use my words to try and lift people up. I pray that my words are a reflection of what I believe. People should be able to know that I am christian by the way that I talk and the way I behave. Not only that, but people will judge all Christians by what one person is saying. What you say matters. Don't throw your words away so easily. Stop and think about the words that are about to come out of your mouth.

October 9 

When I see the word join, the only thing I can think of right now is Jamberry. I have had so much fun since joining. I love being able to share something I love with the people who are closest to me. I love being able to make money sharing that with others. Won't lie, I am slightly addicted. This payday I am buying three sheets for the girls, but also one for me. I am thinking Halloween ones might be fun! We will see what strikes my fancy when I am placing my order. =) I won't go into detail about what jamberry has also given me, but I will say that it has given me a new purpose. It fills a little bit of the void in my life. When the girls aren't home I am able to focus on the business and hopefully start earning some real money to help them have a great life. I would love to be able to use jamberry to get my girls into the extra circular activities that I haven't been able to afford. The best part of joining, to me, is that in my first two weeks I totally made back the cost of my kit plus the costs of some of the other things I splurged on for the business. Joining jamberry has been life changing for me. Who knows where it will take me in a few years, but I have heard of consultants who pay their mortgage on what they make from Jamberry. It's amazing. I won't use this as a platform to try and "sell it to you" but I will say if you are interested, let me know so I can get you some more information. I love that I have joined a company who rewards their consultants. I love that I have something I love that I can share and earn money. All it took was that leap of faith that it would work as long as I was willing to put the time and energy into it. I had to take the step of faith that my money wasn't being wasted.

October 10 - Five Minute Friday

I hear care and immediately think of my job. I work in an internal medicine office. For those unfamiliar, it is basically a primary care office for adults. A majority of our patients are elderly. I love being a partner in their care. There are a few patients who I have really grown to love. Not only do I care about them getting taken care of, but I care about what happens to them. It's been three years since I started and I still have a few favorite patients. Thanks to HIPAA, I can't share anything about any of them, but I sure love my job and (most of) my patients! Another thing that comes to mind when I think of care is my sweet finance Stephen. He also works with elderly patients, though his care is with them in a nursing home. I can't imagine doing what he does, spending the time with them that he does and dealing with losing them. He has grown so close to a few of his residents that he remained friends with the families after their passing. It's really amazing to hear him talk about his job. Like anyone else, there are days both of us don't like it, but overall the opportunity that we have to help care for the elderly in our community is wonderful.



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365/193: Bitten & Burned!

I went back to work after my weekend feeling less then stellar. I figured out why by mid day. I not only had a lovely sunburn

 

But I am also sporting a patch of LOVELY bug bits on my lower back. 

 

Oddly enough, this is the only place they are! Though I am feeling a bit itchy where the burn is starting to heal. 

PS not going to lie, I love that top picture of my neck. Just something about it makes me feel beautiful!

Big fat rip off!

Textbooks! UGH! I just sold mine back, well, sold the three they would take (out of six!) and only got $20 stinking bucks! I am TICKED! I am going to try and sell the others on craigs-list, so we'll see. But I just don't understand how I paid close to $500 for all of them and got $20. Its just stupid. Is it any question as to why people can't afford to go back?! Hopefully next term will be a better return... I already know I will be ripped off with my coding texts because they have a new edition every January and I don't finish this class until after the fall! UGH! At least I only have THREE TERMS LEFT! Then I can be done buying textbooks for at least a long while!

STUPID!!

I HATE daylight savings time. I just want more sleep gosh darnit! And the kids don't seem to understand that it isn't actually 6 in my head, its 5. Early mornings are not my cup of tea :( But the good thing about springing foreword?



More sunshine to enjoy. :) The glass is only half full if you make it that way!

Stupid groundhog

saw his stinking shadow. I am so ready for spring! :( Bummer, six more weeks of this winter.

Anyway, I guess we have time to enjoy winter time activities. Rain walking anyone??

A little irritated!

I have been seeing a urologist for my kidney stones. I have had four appointments with the guy, three of which they have requested me to reschedule less then a week before the appointment. Can we say I am just a little frustrated with this?? I just want to scream. I wanted the results of my test THIS WEEK and now I have to wait till the 12th. And I swear, if they reschedule me one more time!! Not one of my other doctors have ever done this to me. :( I should have ignored their call and just come in at my scheduled time, but I thought if I actually let them try and work me in around all the other stuff I have going (school, work, kids appointments) that they would just give up and let me come in that day. NOPE! UGH!

Breathe Betsy, just breathe. It will be okay right? I am sure if it were something bad they would have kept the appointment I already had right?

On a lighter note, my kiddos are driving me bonkers. Natalie is doing everything she knows to frustrate me! And its working. I am praying for more patience, but its tough, she knows JUST which buttons to push. And you know everyone has to have at least one of those kids right? Then there is McKayla the "non-eater" Seriously. Don't know what is going on with that girl. WIC isn't concerned, since she is still growing, but I can't imagine this is a good diet for her! lol. I am asking the dr when we go for her four year check, but anyone with suggestions or things that worked for you, let me hear (well see) them. :)

I guess thats me done whining for today. I "get" to go to school for just one class. POO!

ever have one of those days?

I worked ALL day today thinking I was off at 7.
NOPE I wasn't off till 7:30. Sucky. :(

I am just having a lazy evening, asking for prayers for my grandma. For those on facebook you know she is currently in the hospital. :(

Thanks Guys. Will be better next week.

yes

I'm whining again.

My three (almost four) year old is asleep on the couch at 5:30 at night. She won't be sleeping again tonight. The plus side I guess is that she did eat almost half her dinner!

Natalie has another cold. But on the plus side, at least she doesn't have school until Monday!

Jimmy's work messed up his vacation time so he won't be getting paid for three of the days he was off (somehow it conflicted with the holiday or some stupid stuff like that) but on the up side, he has a job, and most of our bills are paid.

Hmmm.... I was sure there was more....

Lets see, I could whine about the fact that our local Wal*mart doesn't carry size two Huggies in the big pack, so I had to buy two small ones, and somehow managed to get one in the wrong size!

Or I could whine about how I have to work at six thirty tomorrow, (gotta love being able to predate your posts! lol)

Or I could whine about the cost of gas, or how the world is all slowly going downhill.

But instead, I am going to kiss my kids, hug them a little tighter, and play some games tonight! Today try something new, try looking at the glass half full, no matter what life throws your way, it really could be worse!

Irritated

You know what? I am going to complain for awhile, and you know what else, I don't really care if you agree with me or not. I hope not to offend and lose readers, but with the few comments I have been getting lately, doesn't seem to matter! I am trying not to get discouraged, because I don't do this for comments and attention, but for me, and so my kids can look back and read someday what their mom was doing when they were little and read firsthand how I was feeling when they were raised. I know that I love journal type books, so having this blog is alot like an outlet of how I am feeling. Well. I am not sure what other people think blogs are for, but many of those I follow and used to really enjoy have become ALL ABOUT the giveaways and reviews. Not that I don't enjoy the occasional giveaway or review, but when that is all your blog is? I don't really understand the point. I read a blog because it interests me. Now, I am following blogs that all they do is give stuff away, and usually have hundreds of followers just because of that. I will admit that I have been entering, but the chances of a win are slim when you are getting seven-bazillion comments. Its just frustrating. I know I have a few friends that will still post the stuff I am wanting to read, and for those who are still doing the giveaways, thats cool too. I just wonder why they blog? Is is just to get free stuff from sponsors for giveaways? Too much work for me. I would rather just bore all my readers to tears with posts like this, whining about whatever I feel like!

And while I am on the topic of whining, what is with this weather, almost 80 degrees and CLOUDY! If its gonna be hot, I want some SUN! lol.

Hope you all have a wonderful Tuesday!

Bed time adventure

Ok, I know many of you are my friends on Facebook, but for those who aren't I thought I would share the interesting time I had last night getting my older two to sleep. You see, I decided to put them in a room together. Its been interesting to say the least. But on one good note, my middle one woke up this morning at 8 am and didn't wake the oldest, so that is WONDERFUL!!! Anyway, here is the "saga" from last night, straight from my Facebook status.

Betsy is trying attempt one of getting both older girls to sleep in the same room. Wish me luck and lots of patience!

Pamela - Good luck with that.... take deep breaths

Betsy - I know. I hope it works out!

Betsy - ok, first trip in, not even 2 mins later.... and headed in again. UGH!

Jessica - Good luck

Betsy - stay tuned for night one, the sharing room saga!!

Betsy - now pondering how much talking to allow before stepping in...

Katrina - "saga" lol

Betsy - three year old is out, back again

Betsy - and now daddy is checking them out.

Betsy - and now Natalie is SCREAMING!!!

Katrina - uh oh!

Betsy - You know you are jealous!! Now its quiet, too quiet?

Betsy - Now daddy is in there cause they are talking

Katrina lol

Betsy and I am still hearing yelling. I am thinking cry it out?

Katrina ya. test cio

Betsy didn't work. Both are out now, Nat for time to calm down. Will try again in 15 mins. Will test the staggering method tomorrow.

Somer HA!!! Try getting 2 seven month olds to sleep in the same room...or at least to stay asleep. LOL

Betsy Ok, both girls finally asleep at 10:45 pm. I PRAY the morning doesn't come too soon!!

Leah Don't say I didn't warn you... LOL!!! However, give it a few weeks before you consider it officially a disaster or a success. Once the novelty wears off, with any luck, they'll settle down and go to sleep!

So. I am ready to try again tonight! I just thought this might be a fun way to share my adventure, straight from the source right when it happened! :) Hope you all enjoyed!

A hot summer day

Today sure was! 

I am blogging later than usual. Thought I had it pre-scheduled to post, apparently not! lol. 

I am really enjoying the summer weather we are having now. I try so hard not to complain when it gets too hot, because, hey I am asking for it all winter! I get slightly annoyed by all those who complain all winter that its too rainy, its too cold, its too whatever, and then all summer complain that its too hot, its too humid, UGH! Enjoy what God has given us! How can you not appreciate the heat when you can see small children take joy in a simple thing like a sprinkler?

Enjoy watching all the crazies who think that the river should be warm enough to swim in since its 90 degrees outside (Can you say SNOW RUNOFF?! Brrr! No thank you! I will take a nice cool pool where temperature is regulated. 

The point is, if you have been begging all winter for it to finally be warm out, STOP COMPLAINING and enjoy it! Because, pretty soon it will be cold out again, and we will be wrapped up tight in jackets! Enjoy the sun while it lasts!

STINKING BLOGGER!!

My friend Leah emailed me yesterday wondering if I was having the same issue she was with her pre-scheduled posting actually posting as planned. And I am! I was just curious if anyone else has that same issue? I had one scheduled Wednesday and Thursday to publish early in the morning and neither did, and both ended up posted late afternoon slash evening when I finally got around to checking. HOW FRUSTRATING! I didn't realize how much I had come to appreciate that feature!

Okay, besides that little rant, I also wanted to share with you my new haircut! :) I started thinking the other day I was ready for a change and decided to just do it today!

Here is me at 40 weeks pregnant with Alivia, the only picture I could find with my hair down!

And here I am today, 11 weeks later and more than 12 inches shorter:

Anyone have any tips on products that would work (hopefully well) to keep it from poofing out? It seems as soon as it dries, the "curl" turns poof. I need something rather quick, if possible. Anyone?

PS Today is the nine year anniversary of the day Jimmy and I started dating!

Specialist update

I told you all about the pain I have been having, and all the appointments I have been having trying to figure out what it is. Well the CAT scan that I had Monday revealed the reason very well, I have kidney stones. Apparently in both kidneys. And there is an 8mm one that isn't in the kidney. So, the doctor set me up with an appointment with a specialist.

Thankfully I didn't have to wait long for my appointment. I saw a specialist on Thursday morning. He told me that there is a 10% chance that the stone will pass on its own. Apparently it is really low, almost already in my bladder. So, please pray that it will pass and without too much pain.

I have another appointment in a month, or I can call sooner if I can't handle the pain anymore. He also talked about a pill that I can start taking on a daily basis to make it easier for the existing stones in my kidneys to pass on their own... they are all smaller, problem is, I can't take it while nursing, so that is out.

Anyway. If the big stone doesn't pass on its own then they will go up with a laser and break it up so it will pass. I really DON'T want to do that, so just keep praying it will pass (and that I notice it!) Well, that's it, the update as it is. Sucks big time.

Oh, and the specialist is going to talk to my Dr some more about what we are (or aren't) doing

Missed a day??

I didn't even notice. 

Went back to check where my posts were, and I missed the 30th of November. :( that is the first time in six months. 

I am pretty bummed. 

So today, you get a lame post of me whining. WAH WAH WAH!! LOL! 

Sorry. 

Just had to do it. 

Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday. 

PS I wanted to emphasize a bit on the self check out statement I made yesterday. I am more frustrated when customers take out their irritation with the machine on me. 

Today I was verbally assaulted. It was awful. I cried (while hiding in the bathroom, after I ran away). 

Anyway, so the next time you are super irritated by that annoying voice telling you to "please place your item in the bagging area" 

Please, don't get mad at your cashier. :) 

And one more thing, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my baby sister. She is 23 today!! :) 

Colleen, I hope you have the happiest of birthday's and may many more follow. I am blessed to have a sister like you.

One of "those" days

You know, the ones where everything seems to be bugging you? 

That was yesterday. 

Kids won't listen 

Kids are beating on each other 

Kids won't share 

Kids screaming non stop 

Okay, so I guess maybe just issues with the kids? 

It's not even just mine. 

I was in the infant nursery Sunday (ages birth to 2). There are just my two and one other little girl. The other little girl, I will call L, threw a ball, I am assuming to Natalie, and hit her in the head. That got Natalie started. And I got so frustrated. 

Then when L barely bumped her head on a toy she starts crying. I go over to her, give her a kiss on the boo boo, and she doesn't stop. Starts wailing "Gamma Gamma" and I told her no, I wasn't taking her out of the class, interrupting another for barely a bump on the head. She finally stopped when M gave her a kiss to make it better. But that again bugged me. I have known this girl since BIRTH it isn't like I am a stranger. 

Disclaimer, if it was more serious I would have gotten her grandma NO QUESTION, this was just not worth it.

Anyway. I just wanted to whine a little. Another thing that bugged me?? 

EVERYTHING! I am going to blame the pregnancy. 

Works out in my favor for a few more months right??

I'm so hot!

No really, I am hot. It has been over 100 degrees for the last three days now. Yesterday the high got to 102. At 8 pm as I type this blog it is 98 degrees! I can't believe it. Yesterday was the hottest day sofar of the year. Last year the hottest day of the year I was at a baby shower. And this year? I got to go to a birthday party. A thermometer on the porch where we sat read 110. I am so stinking hot. I am just glad that this year I am not HUGELY pregnant. See I look on the bright side. :) Now, I am not complaining too loud, I know that there are lots of people with weather worse then mine, but for me, the poor Oregonian, 90 is hot, 100 is REALLY HOT! lol. But at least McKayla got to have fun. She got to play in the pool and on a wet trampoline yesterday. But did I get any pictures? No. I forgot my stinking camera. But I promise I will remember it next week!!

Near Miss

I Have to post today or someone will complain... what shall I ever write about. 

Should I write about the fact that I have been feeling achy sick for the last five days. No, that's no fun..... something fun.... 

Oh, I didn't tell anyone about the near fatal near accident I could have witnessed last week. I was working. I work at walmart for those who don't know, I was working in my department (infants) and was working on my apparel racks, I look over at the diaper wall and see a kid, no more then four or five ON TOP of the steel rack. This rack is probably 10 feet, maybe 12 and this child was ON TOP of it!! My heart dropped and I ran over yelling "DON'T MOVE!! I will help you get down...." The mother then looks up and looking panicked asks how he got up there "I climbed" he answered (DUH! the real question I wanted to ask was why did you not see him climbing on there, why wasn't he in the cart or at least holding on UGH) Anyway I grabbed the ladder and yelled for a guy who had just come from the backroom to please come help me (how I would have gotten him down otherwise is beyond me) but he got him down safely and the mother was still exclaiming "why did you do that" blah de blah blah. Then (and this takes the cake) tells him "if you could read you would see this (and points to the sign stating that neither associates or customers should be climbing on the steel) and know you weren't supposed to climb that. 

You know what I think? I think that more mothers should pay more attention to what their kids are doing in the stores. Far too often I see kids getting hurt because their parents refuse to do the hard thing of making them sit in the cart, because "he doesn't like sitting in there" and having something bad happen. 

Or letting them ride under the cart and having their fingers crushed.... I am just venting here.... I just wish that people would think more of the safety of their child and less of the child being mad. Its better a mad child then a maimed one....

Although my story of the little boy turned out well it could have just as easily gone the other way.

so everyone knows.....

I am not in the hospital, though I have already had visitors! 

I did not have the baby, though I have been told by a couple people she is beautiful.

And, I know I am overdue, and yes I am miserable. 

Please, do not call me every two minutes to see how I am doing. 

I am still pregnant and won't likely get out of this condition very quickly. 

I love getting messages, but please if you see a pic, take the time before sending a message telling me how beautiful my new baby is when the caption says it is my NEPHEW. 

Again I will mention how very ready I am for this to be over and done with so I can hold my baby. 

So, please pray for an empty room soon. That is all we are waiting for is a call telling us to come in. The bags are packed and in the car. They could call anytime tonight or tomorrow. 

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let it happen tonight.

whining..... again.

Well I am going to take today to whine. 

I am soooo ready for this baby to be here. 

I have been so sore all day that all I want to do is lay on the couch and sleep. 

I swear that is the only time I can feel halfway normal. And that is only until I feel like I have to turn over.... ugh. 

Half of me thinks I might go into labor tonight. 

I have been having what I think are contractions all afternoon and evening... just nothing really regular. Irritates the heck out of me! 

I even called my ob office to have the on call doctor call me. Ironically it was the same guy who delivered McKayla. 

I was just concerned and wondered if he thought I should come in, but he said unless one of four tell tale signs of labor happens he wouldn't worry about it. I would be more comfortable at home. 

Apparently the 4 signs he is looking for are 1) my water breaking 2) bleeding like a period 3) contractions that are 5 minutes apart for an hour at least or 4) ???? And I have no idea what the fourth one was... hopefully I don't have that one happen. lol. 

Well, I guess I should stop whining for now. 

Though if I am ever going to have an excuse its now, 6 days overdue, I should be taking full advantage. And now that I have a captive audience of at least two loyal readers (thanks girls!) lol. But I won't bore you anymore, and I promise that once this baby is out of me I will blog about something more interesting. So until then enjoy my whining!