Mind Dump

None of Mama Kat's writing prompts jumped out at me, so I am going to do a random mind dump. Maybe if I get a few things out of my head, it will stop hurting.

1. This headache I have had the last two days is beyond irritating. I went home after lunch yesterday and a half hour early today. Just makes everything harder. 
2. My husband is amazing. Cheered me up by bringing me home presents with dinner. 
3. I'm really tired of Natalie fighting me on every single thing. It's frustrating. 
4. I hope Alivia's eye is normal colored by the time picture day rolls around. 
5. Taxes this year really helped us get back on track. Glad to have that refund to help us out. 
6. Wishing my fundraiser for the American Heart Association were going better. If you want to help me meet my goal, you can buy jamberry nail wraps here (pick the Heart for Mom party at check out) or you can donate directly to my page here. 
7. I love watching our doggie play with my husband and/or my girls. They all have so much fun. 
8. Loved the final Lunar Chronicles book. You can see my review on goodreads. It's still kind of in progress though. Hard to write out how I felt. 
9. I love tea. 
10. TMI but I need to go bra shopping and have been putting it off. Why does it have to be so horrible!? 

What's been weighing on your mind this week? 

Mind Dump

Its that time again, to clear my mind off all the stuff that is jumbled in there. I find that when I write things out it helps and sometimes even allows me to come up with solutions to problems. Here is what is bouncing around in my head today:

1. What to make for dinner. Stephen works until seven today so I'm cooking but its just for the two of us... 
2. How much I love my new focus blend (10 drops of wild orange, 10 drops of peppermint, fill the rest of the roller ball applicator with carrier oil and enjoy!). 
3. How excited I am to have more mail when I get home. I'm expecting a couple more packages from Jamberry and a doTerra order. LOVE mail when it isn't bills! 
4. How great my jams look. First time doing a layered look and it's fantastic! 
5. How grateful I am for my friends and family who have put up with my new business with Jamberry and my new passion with doTerra
6. About how much I love my kindle reading app. I can read the same book everywhere without having to carry the book or different devices. 
7. I am thinking about things to do over spring break with my hunny (the girls are with their dad the whole thing). I am taking mom's birthday off (March 25) but the rest of the time it would just be evening things. Got any ideas? 
8. About finances (never ending there) There have been some things that have come up that make it even more important to keep on my budget. 
9. Always about my girls. I am pretty concerned about Natalie. She's still having a lot of trouble coping with the death of her grandma. It's like she just realized that mom is gone. In a way I'm grateful that it didn't happen right away, makes it a little easier to handle now that I'm not drowning in as much grief, but it still isn't easy! Then there is what happened with Alivia yesterday. She tripped on a rug and fell, while putting a pair of scissors away at school. I got a call from the school and they said they had the bleeding under control but that she was pretty upset. I came rushing to get her. I just keep thanking God that it didn't get her eye.
   
   
10. I have been worrying a bit about my friend Luann, she just lost her mom on Monday and it breaks my heart. Even though she knew it was coming, it is a difficult thing to go through.
11. I am so glad to have gotten my bra shopping out of the way for a few more months (possibly longer?) Paid $50 and have two beautiful supportive new ones. Less then what I paid for my last one that only lasted three months and I got TWO this time. 
12. About how much I am getting done today. Final load of laundry is washing. 

I figure 12 things will lighten the load a little. What is on your mind today?

1000 Gifts: three gifts in the kitchen

• I am thankful for the "honey do" project that got done. I have a few special mugs to me and now I am able to display them so they are visible.
  
  
• It is a gift to have a kitchen, however small, that we can cook in. It isn't something everyone has. I watched House Hunters International and have zero idea how families in England get by with such small stoves and refrigerators. 
• It is a gift to have my beautiful garden window in my kitchen for my plants to sit in. I just love being able to look out and if the weather is bad, I can just look at the plants and things in the window.
  
  

Mind Dump

It's been awhile since I emptied my mind onto my blog. It helps me get myself out of my own head for a little while. Here are just a few things going through my mind right now:

1. I can't wait to redo my jamberries. Got some cute new ones I can't wait to see on my finger nails! 
2. I think it's adorable how much Stephen loves our ratties. He is adorable with them. 
3. I am tired of this headache. 
4. I can't believe I forgot all the stuff I printed out at work. SO annoying! 
5. I love coke zero. 
6. I had zero appetite for dinner tonight. We had amazing Chinese food and I could hardly eat any. At least I have lunch for tomorrow. 
7. It was a mixed blessing to have had a dream about mom the other night. I miss her more then I have missed anyone ever. 
8. I love my new smellies for my scentsy. Stephen helped me pick out some we both love. Its nice to have a new smell in the house. 
9. I am also really excited about the jamberry deals going on this month. I hope this month's sales are better then last, though that was still good enough to get me a bonus. 
10. I am glad FRIENDS is on netflix now. I might just have to have a Friends marathon again soon. I love that show. 
11. Just got my power bill for December and I'm so glad it wasn't as high as I was expecting. It was only four dollars more then November. 
12. This de-cluttering challenge is going well. I can't wait to start seeing some real results in the way my house looks. 
13. I finally finished the trilogy I was reading. I will write more about it later but it was pretty good minus the abrupt ending. 
14. I love my new jamberry inventory book. It's pretty and I can't wait to get the pages between done. I have big plans! 

1000 Gifts three graces you overheard

• It was a gift to hear my daughter offering her new toy to her sister to play with because she was sad. 
• It is a gift to hear the sermons on Sunday. Its just a wonderful to be fed and it seems like God knows just what I need to hear.
• It is a gift to hear about the grace of God on my facebook. I know that there are a lot of bad things about facebook, but I have found some amazing inspiration on there.  

Mind Dump

It's been awhile since I did this and it really does help me figure things out. So here are a list of a few things that have been bouncing around in my mind.

• I am worried about the three-day waiting period in Oregon for the marriage license to be valid. Apparently I can't count and won't be in Oregon soon enough for us to get it and be outside of that waiting period. So, now we have to pray that the judge will grant us a waiver. Apparently we can't do anything ahead of time to request it, we just have to show up when we apply for the license and ask for one. Keep me in your prayers. The guy on the phone said it was highly likely it would be granted, but I hate not knowing. 
• I have been making lists of things for Stephen to do (thanks hunny!), lists of things I need to and lists of things that the both of us have to do when I get there. 
• Jamberry application for three little girls wasn't as painful as I thought it would be. Ended up actually doing four and it only took me about an hour. 
• I have a stinking headache and hate it. Wish these stupid things would leave me alone!
• I think I have a small addiction to hobby lobby. It's my happy place right now lol. 
• I also think I am addicted to Jamberry. I want to take my current ones off (that have been on four days!) just because I want new ones on!! 
• Probably shouldn't even get in to how excited I am about how my business is growing. In the last three weeks I have made 160 in commissions! Even with the money I am spending on jams, I am still in the green. =) 
• Pretty sure I have found a new addiction on Netflix. I have been watching Haven and love it. Great characters and interesting story. I like it! 

Just a few of the things going through my mind right now. What about you? Anything you have going on you need to get written out?

Mind Dump

I think it's important sometimes to just empty out your mind. Write down all the things that are bogging you down and see if you can't find some solutions. I have started doing what I call a mind dump on my blog every once in awhile and this is just another of those posts. If you see a solution to a "problem" I have posted here, feel free to email me or leave a comment. I am always up for help when I can get it.

• wish more people would fill out my Google form request for addresses. During the three moves in the last three years I have lost a lot of stuff. :-/ This would help ease my mind about getting wedding invites done and out. 
• Speaking of wedding, the planning is in full force. The ceremony will be in Oregon and we are planning to do a sand ceremony in Boise when we return followed by a small reception for my friends and church family. 
• I am getting really tired of these chronic headaches. Can't seem to find the underlying cause or anything to help relieve them. So frustrating!! 
• I am so glad that the Divorce Cares for Kids group is meeting again. It will be the same thing they had before, but they are excited none the less. 
• Jimmy requested a change in the visitation schedule. He wants to have the girls on Saturdays now. I said yes, but that he had to file the paperwork. I figure he doesn't have a whole lot of time with them on school days so I could give him that. Side note: I am so glad that we are remaining civil through this. It is so much harder when the parents can't get along and figure stuff out. 
• I am quite anxious about a phone call I am expecting tonight. I know what this person is going to say, and I don't want to talk about it, but I know it needs to be done. Vague, I know but keep me in your thoughts! 
• Winter Jam is coming again to Boise and I am so going this year. Twelve bands, ten bucks! I can totally do that. Just need to find a few people to go with! 
• I am so tired of drinking water. I know it's good for me, but it's so boring!! 
• My reading challenge is not going so well. I need to take some time out for reading again. I was so hopeful about this, since I was on track over half the year, but I've been behind since July. :( 
• I need to go buy some more pants. I hate shopping sometimes. Especially for clothes!
• Pretty sure I am going to make another wedding planning Google document. This time for my pictures and what poses/family group photos we want. I know this time I don't need so many.

That's what's ratting around in my brain right now. 

Cancelled!

Today was supposed to be writer's workshop, but I am totally not feeling it, so I am going to just go with a mind dump. That should help me clear some of this junk out of my head. Hopefully I will be focused enough to do this next week. If you are just tuning in, a mind dump is basically a list of all the stuff that is swirling around in my head at the time of writing. It helps me get things out of there and maybe start working on solutions to some of the problems I am having.

• I am feeling a little hungry today. Just started watching what I eat again. Need to start feeling better about myself again. Keep me in your thoughts, this weight loss thing is never easy! 
• I wish that my counseling appointment wasn't so late, it's at 8:30 tonight and is supposed to be an hour. This "old lady" doesn't like being up that late! 
• Is feeling a little worried about my finances and wish that the support payments would start coming in soon... it would be nice to have a little breathing room. 
• I think I am officially addicted to pinterest. I wish I were more crafty though. There are some things I would love to have for my home but I just can't see myself making them. 
• I can't wait until the new guy at work is finished training. He is learning quickly, but I am ready to be "fully staffed" again! 
• I am so proud of myself for remembering to water the lawn every day. It's really looking great and I love sitting in the nice green grass under the wonderful warm sunshine. It's like nature's antidepressant! 
• My girls have been begging way too many weeks to go swimming. I am glad that my sister in law is hosting a swimming party for her youngest's birthday. I am sure they will have a blast! 
• Trying to reduce my soda pop intake is HARD. I have a serious addiction to coke zero, especially when the convenience stores have the flavor you can add. Vanilla coke zero is my FAVORITE! 
• Natalie's first filling is scheduled this next week. Prayers that it will go well would be appreciated. 
• McKayla's attitude is really beginning to wear on this momma. She has very definite opinions and isn't afraid to tell me when she doesn't like something or someone. The worst part is that it's starting to rub off on her sisters. :/ 

So there you have it, just a look at what is on my mind today. What is one thing rattling around in your head right now?

Mind Dump

I think it is therapeutic to sometimes clear your mind of whatever is getting jumbled up in there. That is what the point of my "mind dump" posts are. So, this is what is in my mind right now:

• the power went out on Tuesday morning at my work. I was in the elevator when it went out and it was so dark that I first thought I was stuck! Thank God the doors were still open a bit and I was able to get out and use the stairs. Pretty sure I won't be using the elevator anytime real soon. 
• I am tired of fighting my girls for my pink highlighter. I keep taking it from them (its my favorite for my bible reading) and they keep taking it back to color with! 
• I have really been stressing money lately, but I realized today that I can only do what I can do. I am trying my best to just let go and let God take it. It's hard. So hard when you are a planner like me, but I am working on it. Continued prayers for my finances would be appreciated though! 
• I am feeling very hopeful for a close friend who has been battling anxiety. We commiserate about our shared problems, but he got a new medication that seems to be working! 
• I am really glad the maintenance man from my property management company finally called me. My front door only stays closed with the dead bolt right now. Hopefully he is able to get it fixed for me today. 
• I really love coke zero, probably too much. But I can't help it! 
• I can't wait for my friend to come see me for my birthday. The countdown has, literally, begun! 
• I was super sad to wake up on Tuesday to rain. We have been so spoiled by the good weather. I am trying really hard not to complain though because we "need the moisture" BLAH! I just want it to stay warm already!! 
• I had to call my daddy on Wednesday to ask a question about lilacs. I wondered if they were like hydrangeas (color changing depending on soil). He said they aren't. But he also shared a fun fact. Did you know, if you take one of the lower branches of a lilac bush and pin it to the ground, after some time it will take root and you can clip if off the main plant and transplant it elsewhere? I can't seem to find any thing online about it, but I'm also not sure how to search for it! My daddy is rarely wrong though. :P 

So, what is something floating around your mind right now?

Mind Dump

Every once in awhile, I think it's therapeutic to clean out your mind. I think it also gives you just an inkling of what it's like to be in my mind once in awhile! So, here is what is on my mind right now:

• I have felt better this week then I have in a long time. The sunshine and fresh air is doing me wonders! 
• been really grateful for a friend who has been texting me a lot. Makes you feel less alone, even when you are alone.
• this week went by incredibly fast at work. Have you ever had those weeks where each day seems so long but by Friday you are looking back wondering where all the days went. 
• I'm not sure I got enough of my hair cut off. No one at work even noticed that it got cut. :-/ 
• Its been too quiet in this house this week without the girls, but I am guessing the girls are having a great time with daddy. 
• I can't wait for Friday to get here so I can see my mommy!!
• I'm looking forward to the shamrock shuffle but not to the drive to Caldwell (don't worry, recap will be up tomorrow!) 
• I really don't want to clean out the rat cage right now, but it isn't self cleaning. 
• Not sure if my new ant traps are working or if they are just getting good at hiding from me, but I will take it. The less of them I see the better!
• Love the show Eureka. If you haven't heard of it, look it up. It's worth it. =) 

Another Random Mind Dump

It's been less then a month since the last one, but I feel like it was therapeutic last time, so I'm going to do it again. Just a few of the things rolling around this mind of mine:

• My girls have no concept of inside voices
• I hope the roads are not too slick, I have a to do list longer then I can ignore
• I also hope that the two pieces of mail I have been waiting on show up today. 
• Shoveling the sidewalk is much easier if you get to it in the morning before people walk on it.
• This is one week that I am glad I don't have the weather they are getting back home. We may have a few inches on the ground, but my parents (who normally are lucky to get a dusting of snow yearly) got 13 inches! 
• Diet Mountain dew is the best. I'm glad daddy was willing to share his with me! 
• It's really hard remembering to do all the little things that I used to rely on Jimmy for.
• I need to remember that my girls are perfectly capable of helping around the house and give them opportunities to do so. 
• I also need to remember that I don't need to help them solve every conflict that comes up. They need to learn to work through things themselves. 
• As much as I dislike having to put on Natalie's shoes every day (she got ones that need to be tied and can't quite get them) I love hearing her commentary of what she's pretending to be doing. Yesterday she was on a beach, which led into a conversation about why people lay on towels on the beach. Today, she was making snow angels in the grass. That led to a discussion about how you can't make snow angels without snow. Love that kid. 
• I love that we live on a quiet street again. I don't miss hearing the traffic at all. Except maybe the night the girls aren't home, but I'm finding the dryer or dishwasher gives me just enough background noise to not jump at every sound. 
• As much as I wish for time to slow down just a little, I wish this month would be over for a couple reasons 1) I am so over this crappy winter weather and 2) after February I will have two things paid off that will really give me some breathing room in my budget. 

Anyway, that's it for today. Off to get started on that to do list =) Happy Saturday!

A Random Mind Dump

I think it's important to do this every once in awhile. Clean out my mind a bit. Think through the things that have been jumbled in there. And, just because I want to, I am going to do this bullet style:

• I am tired of the headache I have been battling all day
• I am terrified that the counselor I am seeing today will realize that I really am crazy
• The garage was much too dusty and I regret staying in there while Jimmy swept (the good news is that all I need to do now is go through the boxes that are in there) 
• I hate waiting. Trying not to stress about this house thing is killing me!! 
• I need to start reading more of these books I have checked out at the library. I have no idea how much time I have left before they are due
• Jimmy and I still need to get on paper the agreement for child support
• I am really tired of reading divorce books
• I am also really tired of people telling me we should go to marriage counseling. I won't go if he is already saying it won't work. Period. Quit asking me to "try it for the sake of the kids." I realize this is going to be HARD for them, but having an even more broken mother also won't be easy on them. This way I can let go and move on. 
• I need more boxes
• I have too many books on my shelves. 
• I have lots of stuff I need to post on craigslist for sale, but no idea how to even start on pricing stuff.... 
• I wish my sitter wasn't sick, but I'm praying he regains his health soon. 
• this vanilla diet Pepsi tastes funny. I think I might have used too much flavor syrup
• I can't figure out how I am going to be able to run as a single mom. 
• I am still signed up for a 10k on February 8th that I have no idea how I am going to do. 
• I am also an ambassador for Final kick and have no idea how they will deal with me not running right now... 
• I am seriously blown away at the show of support. I have had letters, emails, facebook messages, uplifting pictures posted to my page, kind comments on this blog. I cannot thank people enough for that. 
• Not sure if I have mentioned it here, but I plan to copy all of the nice things and paste them in my book so I can look at them during my bad days. 
• I am secretly afraid that if I keep talking about my split that I will lose readers or even friends (well not a secret anymore!)
• I am really sad that this week was the farewell to our pastors. They have been a stability in Idaho that I didn't think I would have. 
• I am looking forward to meeting the new pastors next week. I know the Mr's brother, parents and sister already. =) 

So, there you have it, about 15 minutes of me just dumping my brain contents all over this blog!