A Random Mind Dump

I think it's important to do this every once in awhile. Clean out my mind a bit. Think through the things that have been jumbled in there. And, just because I want to, I am going to do this bullet style:

• I am tired of the headache I have been battling all day
• I am terrified that the counselor I am seeing today will realize that I really am crazy
• The garage was much too dusty and I regret staying in there while Jimmy swept (the good news is that all I need to do now is go through the boxes that are in there) 
• I hate waiting. Trying not to stress about this house thing is killing me!! 
• I need to start reading more of these books I have checked out at the library. I have no idea how much time I have left before they are due
• Jimmy and I still need to get on paper the agreement for child support
• I am really tired of reading divorce books
• I am also really tired of people telling me we should go to marriage counseling. I won't go if he is already saying it won't work. Period. Quit asking me to "try it for the sake of the kids." I realize this is going to be HARD for them, but having an even more broken mother also won't be easy on them. This way I can let go and move on. 
• I need more boxes
• I have too many books on my shelves. 
• I have lots of stuff I need to post on craigslist for sale, but no idea how to even start on pricing stuff.... 
• I wish my sitter wasn't sick, but I'm praying he regains his health soon. 
• this vanilla diet Pepsi tastes funny. I think I might have used too much flavor syrup
• I can't figure out how I am going to be able to run as a single mom. 
• I am still signed up for a 10k on February 8th that I have no idea how I am going to do. 
• I am also an ambassador for Final kick and have no idea how they will deal with me not running right now... 
• I am seriously blown away at the show of support. I have had letters, emails, facebook messages, uplifting pictures posted to my page, kind comments on this blog. I cannot thank people enough for that. 
• Not sure if I have mentioned it here, but I plan to copy all of the nice things and paste them in my book so I can look at them during my bad days. 
• I am secretly afraid that if I keep talking about my split that I will lose readers or even friends (well not a secret anymore!)
• I am really sad that this week was the farewell to our pastors. They have been a stability in Idaho that I didn't think I would have. 
• I am looking forward to meeting the new pastors next week. I know the Mr's brother, parents and sister already. =) 

So, there you have it, about 15 minutes of me just dumping my brain contents all over this blog!