How....

How do you say goodbye to the woman who gave you life?
How do you let go of the hand that held yours through so many hard times?
Right now I have a lot more questions then I do answers. I am struggling to find the way to express how I am feeling but it is beyond difficult. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

My heart is heavy and feels pumped full of holes. My mother was a huge part of my life. I have always been a mommy's girl. I was born while my daddy was out on a "cruise" in the navy and didn't see me for the first few months. She has supported me and my siblings through every school concert, every parent/teacher conference, every church performance.

She was there the day I got married to my high school sweetheart. She was there for me when I had my miscarriage and there for almost all three of the birth's of my children (she missed Alivia's by minutes!) I can't remember a time she was ever unable to be the listening ear I needed. I know she wasn't perfect, I won't put her on a pedestal and say she was, but she was quite amazing.

She's been gone only a day and there are already hundreds of comments and posts on facebook about her. People have been amazingly supportive. I literally cannot count the number of children that she has had an impact on. Many of them are now grown with children of their own who she has already left her mark on.

A friend of mine on facebook has made some wonderful things for me. Two of them specifically about mom. I am going to share them here.